for their words are sometimes lies

Never fall in love with a poet...

Never fall in love with a poet
for their words are sometimes lies
on occasions they're a shield
on occasions a disguise

They will take you on a journey
upon which they bare their soul
in a bid to ease your burdens
in a bid to make you whole

But in every word they choose
for the stories that they tell
lies a little piece of heaven
and a little piece of hell

Tormented souls we poets are
sometimes quite broken and despaired
in search of lost expressions
missed by others who once cared

Never fall in love with a poet
unless you're prepared to share their pain
to hold them close on the darkest nights
over and again

- Thomas Hawkins

SENTI

1. The first two are gifts from my (2nd ex boyfriend), Carl and the third box is from my first ka-MU.
(he who must not be named)

2. The first MP3 player that I got. I won it from a contest during Candy Fair. I just can't remember which year. 

3. A page from my scrap book. (the following photos are also pages from my scrapbook)
This are the greetings from my orgmates during my 20th birthday. 

4. 20th birthday greeting from my orgmates!

5. 20th birthday greeting from my orgmates! 

6. JUSTICE FOR JO-XA.
Only the cool people will get it. <3

7. My first Induction ball.
I received the MOST PROMISING AWARD.
Thank God , I did not let them down.

8. 20th bday greeting from my orgmates and my MP Award

9. My certificate of recognition for being inducted as a MEMBER of UPAEMS.
Induction 2010

10. (2 years after) My certificate of recognition for being inducted as PRESIDENT of UPAEMS.
Induction 2012

11. My Best Sis Award during the UPAEMS' Induction 2013.
Something I'm proud of is that I always win something every induction.
For UPAEMS' Induction 2012, I bagged two awards (1) the fashionista award and (2) The best sis award

12. SiJuan (C1) 18th birthday greeting. (Agricultural Economics Blocmates)

13. yadda yadda yadda

14. The right side page: That Intermediate paper is an origami (eyes)
the tag "i love you like woah" was from my ex when he gave me 19(fave number. bday) pieces of red roses.

15. the green one is an I'm sorry letter from Danica.
The blue one is a filler filled with classroom chats (note-passing notes) from my high school classmates.

16. A thank you card from Regine! 

17. An thank you and i'm sorry card from danica, queenie, steffi, Janine and Regine

18. a sorry letter from Jaye

19. A birthday letter from Janine, My bestfriend. (The blue one)
And an I love you card from my then bestfriend -urned boyfriend-now ex boyfriend, carl. 

20. An i'm sorry, thank you and I love you cards from Carl, Leniel, Jaye and Esther. 

I never.

You may cry a river and things will still not go your way.

What is it that you want exactly?
Do you want everyone's' undivided attention?
Do you want everyone to trust you and only you?
how is that even possible when in fact, you feed them with nothing but lies.
You bribe them with colorful pretentious things that even they are fools to believe.
You are nothing but a fake arrogant spoiled brat and you will never have true friends unless you change you evil ways. You need to take a good look in the mirror, accept the negative things and appreciate the good things. No one is perfect.  

It's been how many years and you haven't change, not a bit.
You're possessive.
You crave attention.
You always want things your way.

sweetie, I hate to break it to you but, It won't be like that forever.
You need to grow the fuck up.
You need to start cleaning your shit.
You need to start loving yourself and stop thinking about anyone else.
stop thinking about anyone else.
stop thinking about anyone else.
stop thinking about anyone else.

Focus.
Focus on the things you need to accomplish, pleasing everyone is not part of it.
Having a boyfriend is not a part of it.
Self-pitying is not a part of it.

Get out of your comfort zone and live.
really live.

Hashtag: InstaComfort

The bigger asshole

I have been hate blogging recently and it's really bothering me.

I HAVE NEVER BEEN SUCH A BITCH IN MY LIFE..
until now.

I don't know why i'm being mean to everyone.
I feel like it's my second nature and being president of an organization oppressed me to different things such as this one, being mean to different people. I suddenly ran out of patience with people's bullshit. I had enough. I want things my way.

I know that i need to change soon but right now,
this summer time,
allow me to take in the heat of the sun and just let the steam out.
I think I need this. I need to be real. I need to be true even just for myself.

I may drop some 'friends' along the way but this way, i'm lessening the baggage.
forget the people who hurt you.
forget the people who don't care.

I know that I can hurt a lot of people,
but i'm choosing my own happiness now.
You and all else shouldn't matter.

I can't be too nice anymore.
I want to be selfish.
if you can't deal with that, then go on without me.