Do I even have the liberty to
mock them lovers in love?
Those pathetic cheesy fools
trying to imitate those crazy chick flicks that can never ever happen in real
life are just impossible. I just want to skin them alive.
Where am I
getting this? Well, I just had enough dosage of those love bullshit. I realized that Popoy was stupid to still
accept Basha even after her madramang pakikipagbreak. I realized that Jack and
Rose relationship was pure lust, not love. (“Hey I just met you, and this I
crazy, but here’s my bunk number so fuck me, maybe?”) They semi kinda met for
just a couple of days. Kamusta naman yun for true love. I realized that all the
love stories decipher Romeo and Juliet’s, always a tragedy in the end, never a
happy ending.
Yes. I am bitter
because I just had my heart broken to the guy that I have never even dated, to
the guy that never even gave a slightest hint that he likes me back, to the guy
that I never had a chance to start with. I thought it was only a crush but
unfortunately, it ended up crushing
my poor poor little heart.
I had a crush on
him because he was the opposite of boring. He can sing, dance, act and tell
funny jokes. He is charismatic too. I liked him, I liked him real lot. I’m
saying it in past tense because I am in this stage of moving on. I am slowly
accepting the fact that I fell in love with him and it’s going to be like a
taboo if it will go any deeper.
You know what
irks me more is the fact that he never showed interest which means that I never
had any right to say ‘paasa siya’ because he’s not and it also means that he
really really don’t like me in a way I want him to like me; wala man lang ni konting libog---ika
nga. I’m just a friends forever kind of friend.
This is so sad
and I’m always heartbroken and I know that I sound pathetic, I am really, because
I’m heartbroken all the freaking time. This is because I am longing to be with
someone right now. I miss the holding hands with your boyfriend while chilling
in your house moments, I miss having pacute fights with someone and I miss
hearing those three words from a loved one. I think I’m mentally deranged, (by
the looks of this, I hope I’m mentally deranged) but that’s what I’m feeling
right now. I fucking hate this shitty feeling.
Haaaaay positive mantra. Whoooooo. Whoooo.
Breath. Breath. Haaaaah.
No more. I’m
finally giving up on love. SAY HELLO TO FUCK BUDDIES SYSTEM! Kidding!
Seriously though, enough minding
love and start cleaning my dorm room from now on. No more reading (after I
finish despicable guy book 2) of WATTPAD because it makes me lovesick even
more. I shall be foreveralone forever. </3 kthnksbye
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(c) Jo Villanueva
