SENTI

1. The first two are gifts from my (2nd ex boyfriend), Carl and the third box is from my first ka-MU.
(he who must not be named)

2. The first MP3 player that I got. I won it from a contest during Candy Fair. I just can't remember which year. 

3. A page from my scrap book. (the following photos are also pages from my scrapbook)
This are the greetings from my orgmates during my 20th birthday. 

4. 20th birthday greeting from my orgmates!

5. 20th birthday greeting from my orgmates! 

6. JUSTICE FOR JO-XA.
Only the cool people will get it. <3

7. My first Induction ball.
I received the MOST PROMISING AWARD.
Thank God , I did not let them down.

8. 20th bday greeting from my orgmates and my MP Award

9. My certificate of recognition for being inducted as a MEMBER of UPAEMS.
Induction 2010

10. (2 years after) My certificate of recognition for being inducted as PRESIDENT of UPAEMS.
Induction 2012

11. My Best Sis Award during the UPAEMS' Induction 2013.
Something I'm proud of is that I always win something every induction.
For UPAEMS' Induction 2012, I bagged two awards (1) the fashionista award and (2) The best sis award

12. SiJuan (C1) 18th birthday greeting. (Agricultural Economics Blocmates)

13. yadda yadda yadda

14. The right side page: That Intermediate paper is an origami (eyes)
the tag "i love you like woah" was from my ex when he gave me 19(fave number. bday) pieces of red roses.

15. the green one is an I'm sorry letter from Danica.
The blue one is a filler filled with classroom chats (note-passing notes) from my high school classmates.

16. A thank you card from Regine! 

17. An thank you and i'm sorry card from danica, queenie, steffi, Janine and Regine

18. a sorry letter from Jaye

19. A birthday letter from Janine, My bestfriend. (The blue one)
And an I love you card from my then bestfriend -urned boyfriend-now ex boyfriend, carl. 

20. An i'm sorry, thank you and I love you cards from Carl, Leniel, Jaye and Esther. 

I never.

You may cry a river and things will still not go your way.

What is it that you want exactly?
Do you want everyone's' undivided attention?
Do you want everyone to trust you and only you?
how is that even possible when in fact, you feed them with nothing but lies.
You bribe them with colorful pretentious things that even they are fools to believe.
You are nothing but a fake arrogant spoiled brat and you will never have true friends unless you change you evil ways. You need to take a good look in the mirror, accept the negative things and appreciate the good things. No one is perfect.  

It's been how many years and you haven't change, not a bit.
You're possessive.
You crave attention.
You always want things your way.

sweetie, I hate to break it to you but, It won't be like that forever.
You need to grow the fuck up.
You need to start cleaning your shit.
You need to start loving yourself and stop thinking about anyone else.
stop thinking about anyone else.
stop thinking about anyone else.
stop thinking about anyone else.

Focus.
Focus on the things you need to accomplish, pleasing everyone is not part of it.
Having a boyfriend is not a part of it.
Self-pitying is not a part of it.

Get out of your comfort zone and live.
really live.

Hashtag: InstaComfort

The bigger asshole

I have been hate blogging recently and it's really bothering me.

I HAVE NEVER BEEN SUCH A BITCH IN MY LIFE..
until now.

I don't know why i'm being mean to everyone.
I feel like it's my second nature and being president of an organization oppressed me to different things such as this one, being mean to different people. I suddenly ran out of patience with people's bullshit. I had enough. I want things my way.

I know that i need to change soon but right now,
this summer time,
allow me to take in the heat of the sun and just let the steam out.
I think I need this. I need to be real. I need to be true even just for myself.

I may drop some 'friends' along the way but this way, i'm lessening the baggage.
forget the people who hurt you.
forget the people who don't care.

I know that I can hurt a lot of people,
but i'm choosing my own happiness now.
You and all else shouldn't matter.

I can't be too nice anymore.
I want to be selfish.
if you can't deal with that, then go on without me.

I need an Advil

We met in the most 'unromantic' place life has to offer. Our set of friends are huge bastards, including you, and we both know that we are the people that we should not trust. I know that you are this type of guy who goes for the pretty one or the skinny one. You know that I am looking for a long term companion, something that is way different from your ideals, or even morals. We know that you have slept with a gazillion girls (okay, I may be exaggerating a little bit) and you know a lot of those stuff I refuse (yet) to explore 'cause I'm not yet ready. I have this feeling that one of these days, while we are making-out, we will eventually do IT. I know you feel the lust too. BUT I'M SURE THAT I'M NOT READY TO GIVE UP MY V-CARD JUST YET. 

You know that i am a challenge while I know (knew) that I only like you in a friendly way until that day when we made-out while playing this game called...

We are both difficult, we are both busy and I refuse to be your first priority as you are not my. You are a jealous lot though the weird thing is that you never bother to check up on me every hour, thank God. You respect my time and you understand when to disturb me and when to comfort me and when to tease me and oh dear, I'm fucking missing you right now as i'm typing this.  

I know that I'm being selfish but I really want to be blunt about this. I wasn't straight forward then but It's never too late to tell you these things. I don't want expectations with no basis at all. I want a clear status between us and when I was confused about what 'us' is, I said goodbye and you found yourself a girlfriend. That was deep shit. I was hurt. You motherfucker. Then, you said bye bye to that woman because you said that it wasn't working out because it was really me that you wanted, and you still want me.

Oh God knows how much I want you. I really do but i want something else too and I want it more. I really want to graduate this year and I want no unnecessary things to bother me, include a very hot you. I know that what we're doing (flirting and anything in between) is wrong for both of us and we must stop real soon.

I can't believe i'm saying this but I think i'm being unfair.

Like I said, you want things I can't give you, knowing that, I know you will not be 100% happy.

i don't know how long this will last but let me tell you something,
i love our late night convos,
i love Mrs. Potato Head
i love hanging out with you
but I'm not yet, and I don't know if i'm going to be, in love with you.

I'm not playing any games here. I want everything clear. 

hating your stinking guts

okay. i'm writing this because i refuse to do this PI 10 timeline shit, i don't know how to, not yet anyway, and I don't think you guys will be able to read this anyway. Okay, maybe i wish you do read it.

You guys frustrate me. 

I semi-hate the four of you right now.

I know it wasn't right to consult other people, especially my very biased friends, but I had to ask because maybe it was just me, but it wasn't. you guys are tad too selfish.

I was upset by the fact that I didn't get invited to your Iron Man 3 shit and I was upset about not getting invited to Cathy's slumber party. Okay. I totally sound shallow but just look at it this way, I was in the tambayan with you guys, talking about those shit and not once did you even care to ask if I (not only Me but the others too) would love to hang out and watch a movie with you.

You guys did asked once though, A week before the day of the premiere and I said I was interested,

You never asked me again. 

Right now, I sound like a self-centered piece of crap but that was you guys did, was really insensitive.

I'm not done with my endless rants.

You are kinda living in this bubble in which the only entities allowed are the four of you. Yes, I have never felt this left out in my life in UPAEMS since a month after our finals in 2009. I tried reaching out. I really did but I'm kinda fed up now. Insensitive pricks. 

Well, I can't hate you because I love you guys too much but I don't like you guys right now and I think I don't want to be your friend as of the moment.

I just hope that you make others feel WANTED AND INCLUDED.

Have a nice day. 

Jo Villanueva ‏@iwantjo Protected account1 May

Please don't get used living in your own little bubble. There are other people too. At least make them feel like they're included. (via twitter)