MENTAL DISORDER: June 2012

June 27, 2012

Music for the week

I am currently loving Maroon 5's Payphone but i don't want to blog it since the song is semi-kinda depressing whenever you hear it because it takes about closing doors and losing chances. I have another song in mind though, it's Somewhere Over The Rainbow by Israel Kamakawiwo'ole. It is the complete opposite of Payphone, it takes about hope and dreams and rainbows. I know that Somewhere over the rainbow is such an old song but this rendition is much more soothing, more mature for the ears and different. It is remixed with the song, What a wonderful world, which is also a song of positivity.

I pray for a good day ahead! Ktnxbbye.

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DAY - : Where have you traveled?

I have been to Australia,

I have been around Europe,

I also enjoyed an afternoon at Greece,

oh, I've been to United States too!

i've been there several times, actually.

I have checked out different countries here in Asia.

I have been to Hogwarts,

I have seen the moon,

I have sailed the Amazon river,

basically, I've traveled so many places,

and I thank my books for this.

Traveled physically, I have been to Boracay, Batangas, Subic, Samar, Bicol, Tuguegarao, Baguio, Tagaytay, Antipolo and Laguna. Travelling makes me appreciate the beauty of my country. We have such a beautiful country, sadly, it gets molested everyday. </3

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June 24, 2012

DAY - : A random funny story.

My dormmates were teasing me that look like Ms. Eugene Domingo. So to please them, i googled an image of here and found a photo that looks exactly like me. hahaha. It was so funny because the outfit, the expression and the fierceness were similaaaaar! hahaha totally cool. i actually blogged the picture already, so let me just give you the link: http://eyelinersandcocaine.blogspot.com/2012/03/ate-uge.html

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DAY - : The most heartbroken you have been

When my first serious relationship ended.

I was deeply hurt because we were bestfriends.

My boyfriend and I ended our relationship when we were already a year and a month long. Actually, I called it quits so that he could court me again. Yes, kaartehan nga lang. The problem was, He said he don't know how to court and he made no effort to just even try. That was the start of our pitfall.

We still treated each other like we're boyfriend and girlfriend. We date, we text, we talk and we say i love yous. Then one night, we were arguing at Y!M when i asked the question, "May iba ka pa bang gusto bukod sa akin?" and he said yes.

I never imagined myself crying so much for a guy, but i did.

He broke my heart.

After two days of no contact, I 'buzzed' him and then he told me that I was misunderstanding him. That he likes the girl because she is such a good friend and GUSTO pa niya lalong maging kaibigan dahil hindi siya pakialamera pero pag may problema ka, ganyan, anjan siya to help. gusto lang niya na lalong maging kaibigan. Bullshit right?

I don't know how i did it but after two days, I fell out of love.

SO THAT'S MY STORY

Here's a picture of us:

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Playmates

THE DORMMATE

UNIBROW is so in right now.

THE NEW ROOMMATE

THE NEW PLAYMATE

Yesterday, I went to SM Calamba to have a date with my mom. I brought my friend with me and they stopped me not on buying that ELF eyeshadow palette which has a gazzillion colors. When we got back to our dormitory, we started playing with my make-up and ended up with a photoshoot.

with Renzes Pearl & Mia Patricia. :D

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June 22, 2012

fifteen.

June 17, 2012

Series of unfortunate events: TWO

Last May, I thought he was, but he turned out to be otherwise.

I’ve know Mr. Asdfgh since fourth year high school. I met him during my cousin’s debut. He was the brother and the chaperone of a friend of the debutante. Knowing that we were on the same year level, she asked me to accompany him for this event so that he won’t get bored or anything like that.

It was awkward at first but he was easy to talk to. He talks a lot, actually. He was the one who entertained me, not the other way around. He was funny and yes, handsome. But there was no way that we would be together, you know, like boyfriend-girlfriend kind of thing. I was committed that time and he was courting someone as well. We were just friends.

We never tried contacting each other after that night. It was like, I completely forgot him. I’m pretty sure he felt the same way too. Then facebook era came. He was one of those random people you suddenly remember because you’ve got no one left to stalk to and you are just so freaking bored. I added him up, he accepted my friend request but we didn’t interact immediately, until one random day, he asked for my number and invited me to watch one of his games. Soccer. Unfortunately, I was busy that time so I declined.

Systemone summer enlistment came and he surprisingly called me and asked if we could hang out. Since I was just a walk away from his school I said yes. We ate out and he paid for everything! The weird thing was that, it felt like we’ve been friends forever because there were only a few awkward moments, I was comfortable with him. We went out a couple more times, but he neither texts nor calls unless he’s gonna invite me out and it aggravated me!

There was one time when he didn’t bother contacting me and when I finally accepted the fact that it wouldn’t work out because he is not that interested, he called and asked me to go out and drink coffee with him. I am not a coffee lover but I said yes.

The whole set-up was frustrating. What is our status? Are we just friends? Do we have a chance to be together? Because honestly, that time, I was seriously looking for a boyfriend. I know that it’s pathetic; I know that it’s sad, but I’m a girl looking for a chick-flick kind of love story and so I ended it.

He wanted a hang-out buddy, I wanted a boyfriend. It wouldn’t work out. If I gave in to his request, I know that my heart will get broken again because I’ll eventually fall for him. If he gave in to my request, it wouldn’t work out either. He wasn’t fully prepared of the idea of having a girlfriend. He just wanted a company. I’m thankful enough that he didn’t lead me on. He even asked if we can just stay as we are (friends) and enjoy each other’s company which I refused because, yun nga, masasaktan lang ako kasi magkakagusto ako sa kanya kahit na pigilan ko pa.

I know that it’s my fault. Falling for a guy is easy breezy for me, maybe because I’m too willing to do anything to get a boyfriend. I can imagine your forehead cringing. I’m stressed out too. Sadly, this is who I am. I have fully accepted that ‘kalandian’ fiasco. I know that all these happenings will help me be more mature with the thought of being in a relationship. Right now, I wish to focus on something realistic, like my academics and my organization. If I manage my time right, there would be no time for love-smuck stuff.

So love, hope you can wait.

sincerely yours,

Jo Villanueva

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Series of unfortunate events: ONE

Last March I was heartbroken again.

I met a guy named ‘asshole’. He was sweet, he was cool and he has a car. He studies in Ateneo and he is very much conyo, which is one of our similarities. He was my fantasy boy. I met him through a mutual friend.

He loves to party and socially awkward, he is not. He is very outspoken and very frank, but he is a liar too, if you must know.

Being sweet and outspoken is a trait of a charmer and a charmer he’s every bit. He had a smexy voice and it complemented all the lies that escaped his mouth. I was captivated. I was deceived. I was a fool, indeed.

Why am was I so angry? Well, I thought we had a ‘mutual understanding’, he said so himself, but I very was wrong. While my head was slowly slandered, the world was unfortunately laughing at me for he had a girlfriend. Oh what a tragedy that has happened to me!

He was great in so many ways. He was thoughtful, smart and the most important part that he did was that he went all the way to SM Calamba just to see me (I didn’t go to Manila that weekend because it was hell week, but yes, I used the Saturday of that weekend to go out on a date with Mr. A-hole). He was the only guy who travelled far just to see me. Though i remember feeling uneasy when a particular event happened that day, a girl texted him. I should’ve known. I should’ve followed my instinct.

So it continued for another week or two until I found out that he already had (they’ve broken up after he cheated.) a girlfriend. It was fucking frustrating because I was ‘falling’ for the guy, but of course, I can’t steal away somebody else’s boyfriend. I ended it. But then she (his ex) found out and broke up with him too! I know so because she told me herself (through Facebook message).

After that, that horrible bastard blamed me for ruining his relationship with his girlfriend, I wasn’t guilty, not even a bit. I knew I was a victim too. After a day of harassment (he called me numerous names that aren’t even legal to be written in the dictionary, that bad), I finally hit my head on the wall and decided to turn off my cellular phone so that he won’t pester me, even for just a short while.

He stopped calling me that week but then he told me he loves me the following week. I was baffled and his head was cracked beyond repair. My knees still felt weak for him. My head still send kilig signals to my body whenever he texts me. I know that I was a complete moron for even thinking twice of accepting him back into my life. Thankfully, I had my ex-boyfriend to talk some sense to me, and that he did. My ex told me that maybe, he was just trying to get even and maybe, my ex was right. So I followed his advice and hated Mr. A-hole.

I have moved on since then.

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June 11, 2012

Father's Paradise

24/7 Balikbayan Fun Resort

---I don't know if the name of my father's resort is irritating or funny. I thought that he would stick to Camp Hut Resort, since 'Camp Hut' is already the names of our restaurant in both Makati and Antipolo. I don't know what my father was thinking but if your gonna ask me, i think that he thinks that his main consumers are balikbayan. (you don't say?)

Anyway, even if the name of my father's paraiso makes my eye twitch, i'm still proud of the work that he did. It is not "high class" but it does not look cheap either, and their food was amazing. You make think that i'm just bias, maybe I am, but that's how i really feel.

Though i don't have much picture of my father's resort, at least i know in my mind that the place is awesome, and the food too!

BEST VIEW FOR POOPING

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three days madness

Not in chronological order...

DAY 1: Pearl, Lyka and I chose Jollibee Magallanes as our meet-up place. We rode the MRT and went to ABS-CBN, Lopez building. We also checked the PBB house while we were there. After that, we ate lunch at Trinoma then off to Greenhills to meet-up with Marina and do some serious shopping. We got tired and drank tea at Happy Lemon. When it was time to go home, Queennie asked f we could meet her at Robinsons Galleria and eat dinner with her but when we got there, she told us that she want to watch that Piolo-Angelica movie, and so that, we watched. After the movie, we were kind of broke and decided to go home (my place).

DAY 2: WE went to DFA to work on my passport then after that, we went straight to SM Mall of Asia because we were so hungry. After eating lunch, we rode taxi going to Manila Ocean Park. There we were able to see penguins and feed penguins and know a lot of things about penguins. Since our feet were still itching to go anywhere, we've decided to go to Fort santiago and Intramuros. We rode the Calesa and all that shizz then we went home and slept.

DAY 3: we had a wonderful time at Enchanted Kingdom. Our first ride was Rio Grande which soaked us wet then we rode the flying fiesta to dry up our hair. After that, we rode the Rialto and then the forever scary, Ferris wheel. next was my favorite, Viking! Then we rode the Log Jam, then the roller coaster (without Pearl). After that we ate then road the f1 racing cart ride. I rode the EKSTREME alone, since Lyka and Pearl were both scared. I feel so brave! haha. Our last ride was Rio Grande, and yes, we went home (commute style) wet!

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June 03, 2012

shoe loving

A friend suggested that I blog my shoe "collection" and I thought it was a great idea since most of my shoes decipher my creative personality. I bought these shoes because they are either classy, colorful, loud or very functional (which is good for everyday use) and yes, tiis ganda ako pag dating sa sapatos. I swear that i did not blog this to show off or anything. So don't go hatin' on me, girl. haha Oh, and btw, after the shoe photoshoot, I threw away some of the so, this also serves as their memoir.