P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C

Oh holy crap.

I just saw how long he stared at her while she was walking away from our tambayan to go someplace else. To eat lunch, perhaps?

I had no idea how i was able to bear the whole scene,
but after looking at him, i felt the need to get out of that place and just be on my own.
to cry.
to feel hurt.
to pity my fvcked up self.

I was hungry and messed up jealous.
a very rare combination.
a very depressing combination.

My God. I why am I affected so much?
I need to stop getting so emotional whenever both of them are around.
it's just fvcking lame and pathetic.

crap. crap. crap. I think I had it bad, I had it real bad with him.
who does he think he is? why is he just so bloody charming?
OH CRAP. ENOUGH. NUFF. NUFF.
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what a pathetic not-so-little arse, Jo.

Get the bloody out of here. 

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(c) Jo Villanueva

How?

Oh sweetie.

My ultimate taboo crush is head over heels in love with you but how can I hate you?
When God poured all the positive things a person can have, honey,
you were wide awake and you took them all.
Pffft.

You are too sweet,
you are soft spoken,
you are polite,
you care.

You're a good daughter,
You are kind,
You are smart,
you are beautiful,
Change that, you are SO SO BEAUTIFUL.

you love your friends,
they love you back and unfortunately,
i'm your friend too, and I, too, love you.

YOU ARE YOU.
how can i possibly hate you?

I also asked myself this, why should I even hate you?

It's not like you forced him to like you,
and I'm not sure, but I think you don't like him back.
You don't even try to flirt with him even when you've found out that he likes you.

all these jealousy is eating my soul whole.
SHIT. I should not be even thinking of hating someone because i'm jealous,
it's not fair and it's not right.
it's just fucking pathetic.

I so need to move on.

SO for Mister taboo crush,
from this day onward, I shall keep my heart on my sleeve. whatever that means.
what i'm trying to say is,
you are out of my pinterest. Imma be over you soon.
The next person i'm gonna like this way is going to be my future boyfriend.
Who will love me and take care of me like a princess.

I just can't like you anymore, my taboo crush.
You treat me like 'family',
you never take me seriously,
you make me fall..fall so deep just by smiling or
even just by looking me in the eyes (deep sigh),
and you hurt me so so bad, unintentionally.

(talking to myself) : yes, of course unintentionally, because FYI,
he doesn't care a single bit about your feelings.

SO NO. NO MORE. </3

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(c) Jo Villanueva

Lookbook post

Someday, my kids will see this and will think,

"golly, mommy's so stylish even when she was in her teenage dream" 

*well, got my fingers crossed for the future

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(c) Jo Villanueva

Miss B

Mala- EASY, BREEZY, COVERGIRL. 

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(c) Jo Villanueva

GO CAPPAS!

We enjoyed the afternoon serving the country by volunteering for flood victims.

We helped sort and pack the donations given by kind-hearted people and after that,

we gulp down bottles of Tanduay Ice and Antonov and chewed random junk foods

in one of the rooms in our dormitory. Just the break we needed. 

-CAPPA REGLA HOLA SORORITY-

sisters for life. ♥

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(c) Jo Villanueva