I first met him
when I was in first year high school, but I’m not here to share my past love
story with my ‘official’ first boyfriend, I’m here to tell you a story about a
boy who left a girl that loved him deeply.
I don’t know
what happened, really, all I know is that he fell out of love.
THAT BASTARD.
My ex-boyfriend
was a first timer when it comes to committing in a relationship. I (think,
still not sure though) am his first girlfriend but little did he know that I,
too, am not used to committing since my ‘real’ first boyfriend wasn’t boyfriend
material. Anyway, my point is, I think he was half-hearted with everything
because he knew that I knew that he was new to that kind of thing and that I was
easy on him because of that. I lowered my expectations and I lessened my demands.
I was happy but not contented, and I’m sorry for that. I think we both know
that not introducing me as your girlfriend to your family is one sign that
things between us won’t work out.
Anyway, I loved
him dearly. I became a more patient person, I’ve learned to let go of things
just so there would be no conflict and I’ve been more understanding. Actually, I
think I had a post-feeling for him just recently, which sucked big time, btw.
My REAL point is
that I wasn’t able to put up with it, with him, anymore and I LEFT HIM.
SO, THIS ONE GOES TO THAT BASTARD
THAT BROKE MY FRIEND’S HEART:
I WAS A GIRLFRIEND AND SHE WAS
NOT. MINE WAS NEW TO THE FEELING OF BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP, I KNOW THAT YOU
WERE TOO, BUT SHE NEVER LEFT YOU. SHE DID ALL THE THINGS THAT I DID AND MORE
BECAUSE SHE LOVED YOU AND YET, YOU LEFT HER BECAUSE YOU COULDN’T EXCEED NOR
MEET THE LEVEL OF HER LOVE, WELL, FUCK YOU. SHE STAYED, YOU MOTHER FUCKER. SHE STAYED. SHE
STAYED, SHE HOPED AND HER HEART KEEPS ON BREAKING OVER AND OVER AGAIN. IT’S
INSANE ON HOW SHE CAN SURVIVE A DAY, SEE YOUR FACE AND NOT FALL APART. YOU
KNOW, SHE DESERVES A PROPER APOLOGY, SHE DESERVES A REASON AND SHE DESERVES A
CLOSURE. I HOPE YOU HAVE ENOUGH BALLS TO DO THAT.
Look,
I love you, you know. We’re good friends, but realizing all the things that
once was between her and you, tangna pre, bakit naman ganon? You just don’t
leave a person hanging, especially the one who loves you dearly. I’m still
grateful that you haven’t talked ill of her and it shows respect, but it won’t be
over unless things are clear and words have been said.
That’s what I think, but who am I
to say these things, anyway? I wish you both well. I love you both.
