completely deranged.

Lord, I don't want to feel this pain anymore. Please please please take this pain away from me. I don't think I can handle anymore of this. Ilang gabi pa ba ang iiiyak ko? Ilang kaibigan pa ba ang itataboy ko? ilang araw pa ba ako magiging ganito? Please maawa ka na sa akin kasi ayoko na po talaga ng ganito. hindi ko naman po ito ginusto. Ang sakit sakit na. walang nakaakaintindi, walang nakakaalam, walang nakakatulong sa akin. Lord, kanino pa ba ako hihingi ng tulong, sayo lang naman, hindi ba? This feeling is sucking everything that I am; my worth, my happiness, my soul. Sooner or later, i'll be left with only a hollow form of a human and nothing else.